不说爱

我不说爱
因为爱情是要经过时间的历练
两个人一起经历人生的酸甜苦辣
依然不离不弃
那才叫爱
才刚在一起的两人
说什么爱
有的只是那单纯的喜欢和感动

但我能确定的是
被一个人这样疼着
让我觉得很幸福

L.O.V.E

I love you
You love her
She loves her
She loves him

You love me
I love him
He loves him
He loves her

Why is it that in this world no one loves anyone anymore?
Why is it that everyone in this world is not happy?Why is it that everyone loves other people but does not love themselves?

      

Shooting Star

Shooting star always make a spectacular at a lonely night.. But sad to say that i never had a chance to see it..

Until one day, when facebook had been flooded with the news about the Geminids meteor shower at midnight of 13 December..

I went out with my friends at around 12am and waited until 1am.. but a shooting star was nowhere to be seen..

We had a guess we could only watch it by a seaside or on a hills..

The next day, i learnt from some friends that they got a chance to watch the meteor shower at USMKK field.. it's around 2.30am.. and i missed it.. i seriously wanted to witness the magnificent scene of meteor shower with my true eyes..

Second chance came to me when i was doing my assignment at the second night..

It was around 1.30am... my friend told me there was a continuation of the meteor shower that night..

I went out with my roommates for the meteors..
It was a starry night.. the Polaris was hanging just above our heads..
Just after a few minutes we stepped out from our hostel, one of my roommates saw a streak of shooting star flying across the sky, behind my back.. and i missed it again..

We gazed the stars near the field as it was away from the glow of lights..
We enjoyed the time waiting as we could hear people screaming from everywhere..
"They must have saw one," and we would look at the sky attentively, spotting for a shooting star..
After 2 hours of waiting, my roommate had collected 12 shooting stars.. yet i did not spot a single one..
I can actually saw some dim streaks of light flying across the sky, but i was not sure if they were meteors or were just my illusion..
I won't give up easily.. i would not go back unless i saw one..

Finally, a bright, long streak of light flied across the dark, lonely sky.. i was sure it was a shooting star, not my illusion..
There is a saying that your wish will come true if you make a wish upon the shooting star..
But when you really see one with your true eyes, your first response will be shouting, followed by jumping with joy.. when you are going to make a wish, the shooting star has disappeared.. and i was just one of the example of it..

That was the first and only shooting star i've ever seen in my life..
Its glamour disappeared in just a few seconds.. and that's the reason why it was so precious..
I shall engrave this momentary and beautiful image in my heart forever..

At different places, under the same sky, did you see the same shooting star as i did? 

Thank you

You are the reason for me to believe that studying in USMKK is worthwhile..

Before I entered university, you gave me advice and encouragement..

When I was in my first year, you guided me along in this unfamiliar environment and contributed your own hard work to me selflessly..

And now I am in my second year, you are no longer just a senior to me..

You are a good listener who is willing to listen to me and enlighten me..

You are a good friend who is willing to share your happiness and sadness with me..

And you are even a good sister who is willing to sacrifice your time to care for and solicitude for me...

Your words did inspire me and lead me through  darkness..

Your company and guidance add colour to my university life...

Thank you very much, my best senior..

It's time to change

"Why do you want to cut your hair short?"

"Do you miss your long hair?"

"Do you regret for cutting your hair?"

These are the questions popped by people when they first saw my new hairstyle..

I really don't know how to answer their questions as these questions never crossed my mind before..

After being asked for so many times, i finally came out with a best answer- because it saves time and money..

Keeping long hair for so many years, i was quite tired with spending much time on washing my hair, doing hair treatment, styling hair every morning, and so on..

I feel so relieved and refreshed with my no more fluffy short hair.. 

Especially when my bathing time has been cut down, and i don't even have to comb my hair or do any hair treatment (just an excuse for being lazy)..

It does save time and money isn't it?

It's time to have a change, change into a new look and a better person..

At least i did muster the courage to change it..

Thanks for the compliments from my friends..

I love my short hair and i have no regrets for cutting it..

Soul. Light

We're telling a story so that people can leave theatre and hopefully have a change in their lives. That's what 

theatre does, that's what live theatre can do.

Soul Light 2011 was written with the hope that we could be better people in a better world. 

Soul light,

is a musical and drama performance organized by Buddhist Society USMKK.

I am honored to be part of this event for 2 successive years..

This year, i was no longer a performer, muddling along and being dictated by seniors..

I was one of the Make-up and Costume Director (becoming a director in a fuddle too)..

Taking part in make-up team was not as simple as i imagined..

Starting from getting sponsorship for cosmetics to guiding my members along, efforts were needed for every step we  moved on..

To me, the toughest part was to persuade the actors into putting rouge on their faces.. I wondered why these newly come male juniors were so shy to accept this..

My job was to make you look better but not uglier, don't be shy please..

Finally our effort did not go into a vain..

We did win hearty round of applause..

I was so satisfied with my own masterpiece too.. hehe..

Satisfaction lies in the effort, not in the attainment, full effort is full victory..

With the contribution of everyone, we finally made it a success..

Everyone has a soul light in one's heart, awaiting to be enlightened..

My soul light is enlightened.. How about yours?  

You Are the Apple of My Eye

One sitting at front, One sitting behind,

That is the start of our Youth...

A Taiwanese movie which had created a great sensation among Chinese..

Has been looking forward to this movie since August  and it finally on show in Malaysia..

Sad to say that it is not showing at Kluang, triggering me to went specially to JB for this movie..

because this is my Youth..

Just what is good in this movie?

It does not have any heroic action scene nor any unfailing love story..

It is just a simple but touching true story, narrating the pure puppy love of two teenagers..

How could a boy go after a girl for 8 years?

After all, what had really touched my heart is not their love but their childish, innocent yet joyful secondary school life..

I bet it does gave a throbbing in the heart of every over 20-year-old adult too.. (not a teenager anymore)

Memories of school life flashed across my mind again after watching the movie..
In those years, we were skipping class, talking behind teachers, opposing teachers and getting punishment, studying hard together, competing with each other...
And never forget the pure and true love among us..

"Memory.. is the diary that we all carry about with us."

When everyone is striving hard to move forward, memory will always remain as memory, which will be revised once a while, but we will never be able to get back to it..
What being left to us are those feelings of slight sweetness, bitterness and craziness...

Oh.. kitten!!

Early in the morning, while still having my sweet dream, i was woken up by my mum's and sis's screams..
I went out with my pyjamas still on and saw a frightening scene..
A kitten was trapped between the slit of the wooden door gate when my mom open the gate this morning..the neck of the kitten was stuck under the gate.. when i saw from the side, i could see that half of its body was inside my house while its head was outside..
Its eyes was closed, there was no blood, i wondered if it still alive..
I almost burst into tears to witness such a heart-wrenching incident..

Inside my house, my mom was crying, mumbling to herself, saying sorry to the kitten..
My sis was screaming.. My dad and brother had went out to work..
I was so terrified at the moment but i knew i must control my emotion.. If i cried too, my mom would feel even more guilty..
The only thing i could do was getting the kitten out from the gate although i was so scared to do that..
Pondering,  observing around the cat.. i really dared not to touch it, let alone getting it out..
I was so worried that its head might become broken when i pulled it out..
Ohhh.. what should i do?

After a moment, the kitten suddenly opened its eyes and looked at me..
Thanks god that it was still alive..
But.. i could merely looked back at it and did nothing..
I really need some mental preparation before touching it..

When i went back to the place after pacing up and down for  few minutes, it disappeared..
And i found it beside the gate..
Since when it came out? How did it do that?
Or it actually could do it very easily, but it was too frightened to do so when i was standing beside..
I checked the kitten thoroughly to ensure there was no any injury..
Ohh.. thanks god that it was fine..

At that moment, I just couldn't suppress my emotion anymore and  cried hysterically..
Before that, I was just pretending to be strong and brave in front of my mom..
I just wanted to give her some consolation and to alleviate her sense of guilt..
Since my mom and sis were so terrified to look at the kitten, i knew i was the only one who could rescue it..
But i failed to do that, i really hoped that someone could help me..
 I was actually not so strong as i  imagined..
If the kitten did not escape on its own, i absolutely had no idea on how to get it out..
It's finally over.. and the kitten is safe..
How i wish i had the courage to touch and pull it to save it from suffering for such a long time..
I must make myself stronger to deal with such a breath-taking situation in the future..

Happy Birthday girl..

It's my best friend's birthday today.. Too bad that i can't celebrate with her AGAIN..

Is that the fate that we have to face after we have graduated from secondary school and left for other places to further our studies?

I know our 10 years friendship would never fade because of time and distance..

Even though we are at different places, doing different things, holding on different dreams,

there is always a bond which link both of us together..

Friends are those who will worry for you, show you concern, cheer you up when you are down, laugh with you when you are happy and give you assurance all the time..

Your concern is my strength in danger and my comforter in sorrow..

I am always faithful to you in weal and woe..

Don't forget our promise to be a lifelong friend to each other..

This is our definition of friends..

and we are best friends.. that's enough..

Happy Birthday, my girl..

Clean water please!!!!

Came across with an article yesterday and feel kind of angry about this..

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/10/22/nation/4954013&sec=nati

Although the article was posted 2 years ago, when i hadn't came to Kelantan,
I don't really think that there is any improvement in this past 2 years..

Having murky water supply should be a serious problem which have to be tackled immediately but not a norm which has been accustomed by the residents here..
Do you know that it does pose a danger to the health of the residents..
It is so ironic for the students in USMKK that we are studying in Health Campus but our health is deteriorating due to the chronic intake of contaminated water..
My white cloth is getting yellowish, my skin condition is becoming worse, and i am using and consuming the dirty water everyday..

The murky water in Kelantan is not a natural phenomenon, it's the result of irresponsible attitude of the state water management company..
Don't they know that they are playing a crucial role in ensuring a clean and safe-to-drink water supply?
Shouldn't they work out a way to solve the problem?
Or i should say that they never see this as a problem..

It said the state water management company did not place priority in cleaning its water pipes.

And when flushing was done, it was carried out without complying with the standard operating procedure, said the report, adding that records were incomplete.

“This has resulted in the quality of water supplied to consumers not meeting the standard set by the Health Ministry,” it said.

（extracted from the article)

OMG!!! These are their ways in managing the water supply...

The water is not originally yellowish but polluted by the uncleaned water pipes...

The authorities, 

please do your job and don't overlook the residents's rights to have clean water..

p/s: I am just voicing out my own frustration, no offence to anyone..

Love our craziness~~

A sudden decision..
7 Nutrition students..
Bought tickets without planning..
No accommodation..
Without any itinerary..
And there we were in Penang~~

Other people said that we were crazy, we could only say that we were making good use of our 4 days break..
It all happened last month, during the CONVEX week..
Most of our coursemates were away to Penang, our classes were cancelled, so we made a snap decision to have a trip to Penang..

I could only say that we were so reckless that we bought ticket before we had found a place to settle down and before we had planned our journey..
Everything was in such a haste and we just muddled through..
Fortunately our friends studying in Penang were willing to take us in..

Upcoming next was how we going to plan our trip..
We simply grabbed a map and that's how we started our tour around Penang island..
Searching on the map, walking for hours, waiting for bus at the wrong bus-stop, losing our way, standing helplessly and staring into space by the roadside, asking people around for the way..
These were normal scenes you could see on us..
And finally we managed to reach our destinations with our perseverance and determination..
Special thanks to those who guided and helped us along the way.. especially a bus driver who drove us to butterfly farm even though the bus never passes there..

On the way to Butterfly Farm, we were the only passengers on the bus. So lucky to meet the kind bus driver who specially drove us there..

Looking at the map is a must.

Nutrition booth.

Batu Ferringi

Butterfly Farm

It's a tiring but meaningful backpacking trip..

Yes, we are crazy..

That's the way we try to seek for excitement in our dull uni life..

"Enjoy your youth.
You'll never be younger than you are at this very moment."

And we are enjoying it.

I miss home~~

Have been away from home for 3 weeks since the last 4 months holiday ends..
I miss home soooo much..
Miss my parents every time i look at this photo..

Miss mama's nagging and her delicious home cooking..
Miss papa's cold jokes and his exaggerated laughs..
Miss sis and bro..
Miss the time when we travelling, watching movie, joking around, laughing at each other...

Something happened at home recently.. wish i were there to overcome all the obstacles with papa and mama..
I know i m not good in expressing words of consolation.. at least i can give you a hug with lots of my love..

I has been niggling by some problems these few days too..
I know it will be over soon...
Everything will be fine.. it is my motto in life.. don't worry too much ok..
I got to be strong.. I am not that delicate and fragile anymore..
Although I am tired to be strong sometimes..
This is a stage of evolution from a little girl to a strong woman.. haha..
I am going to fight against all the challenges..
I m a blessed girl  isn't it? Yes, I will overcome them..

Papa Mama, I am contented with my current life..
I will grow up to be someone whom you will be proud of..
hope so...
Love you all...

Colour of my life

To me, life should not be defined by one colour only..
We can only live one time, why don't we embellish our lives with colours..

If I really have to choose one colour of my life, I would choose white.

White is always a symbolism of purity, cleanliness and innocence.
And it goes well with any colour..

In my perception, my life can be likened to a white cloth whereby I can put on any colour on the cloth..
When I am happy, the cloth becomes red or yellow.
In contrast, the cloth is grey or blue when I am depressed..

I am an emotional person who changes my preference according to my feelings, so as the colour I like..
Therefore, white suits me the most so that I can have all colours for myself..

White is not merely pure or angelic,
it can be unpredictable and mysterious,
because you would never know what colour would I put on it..

Time flies

4 months holidays have officially ended, I am officially a second year student, a senior to someone...
No longer a little junior who was so blur with anything around me, who always needed the help from seniors..
I must grow up, and i am 21 ald.. i must be someone whom my junior can rely on..


Let's revise what i have done in during this 4 months..
Having a vacation? to KL ---> Kukup ---> Hat Yai ---> KL again..

KL

Kukup

Hat Yai

Seems like i have visited quite a number of places.. but the warmest and sweetest place is none other than my hometown--- KLUANG.


Welcome the little new member in my family--- Little Min Hao ( cousin's son)..
Called me auntie ya..

Little Min Hao is soooooo cute.

I would say that i have done a meaningful duty in my hometown, which is doing community service in a children's home.


Teaching the children is not an easy job, especially when the students were not paying attention or they totally did not understand what i was talking about...
But the children there really need lots of love, care and patience from us to lead them for a brighter future..
I am glad that i never lose patience towards the children.. the innocent smile on the children's faces made it all worthwhile..


After spending few weeks with them, i could sense a strong bond being linked among us..
so unbearable to leave them, miss them sooooo much..
Fortunately i managed to have a visit to the home again before i came back to Kelantan...


Mei Shan will be having UPSR tomorrow... hopefully the pencil i gave you will bring you good luck...
Jiayou Mei Shan, all the best in ur coming exam..


Dear children, wait for me ya.. Evien jie jie will come back for you all soon...
ps: Zhi Jian you better be able to remember my name by that time... haha.. miss ur botak^^

Ignorance and simplicity- best way to be blissful

Do you think I am ignorant? Yes, I think so too.

My ignorance doesn't mean that i don't know anything. It's just my way to keep myself away from any mundane problems in life.

Is a simple life so difficult to attain in this realistic world? 

Everyone is so busy in pursuing wealth and status. But, are they happy with all these?

For me, I am just after a simple and blissful life.

Blissful needs not be complex. It can be the feeling of simplicity, creativity and fun.

After hearing the stories of some friends, i just realised many of my friends are not so simple as i expected.

What has the world become?

Is Kluang still be considered a small town with it's simple-minded people? Why do i realise that my friends in Kluang are far more complicated than my new friends in Kelantan? That's the reason which makes me feel ike going back to Kelantan earlier.

Ignorance is a bliss. So, sometimes, i really hope that i don't know anything about their stuff. 

What i can do now is to pretend that i don't know anything and keep mum about these, although i really wish to share it with someone.

Hopefully everything will return to its peaceful state. 

My friends, it's right to pursue your own happiness as long as you do not hurt anyone. You all must be happy always ya...

And, i just wish that i can obtain my happiness with my ignorance and simplicity one day.